I've been playing; and re-inventing myself. & I've been happy doing it...for myself first this time, you are wonderful though, really. well no more, i won't beg to buy a shot at your backdoor to make it at the thought of you, what for?that's not me anymore. i'm not the guy that i intended to be, i dare you darling, just you wait and see. That's right, that's right.
but this time not for you, just for me...
It took a lot of musing, a lot of coffee's (i promised my mum i won't do drugs when i move to singapore), a lot of emo-esque (sad, and lame i know..) dwelling & one fine day I think I got hit in the head with a huge metal pole and a sign attached to it saying "IT'S OVER!". I've learned that the one thing in my life I could ever hold on to of any importance is -- myself; and I'm intending on it to never go away ever again.
I'm not a person of great grace when it comes to instant change, but when it decides to change there's nothing else for me to do *but change with it -- and once I've completed that process of adapting, and in fact, changing myself for the better, I accept what has become and remember what has happened - to ensure that the *mistakes I've made, don't ever happen again.
Lately I've been inspired. I've been pushed to get "real life" started. For a really long time there was this funk, this directionless path i thought I wasn't ever going to be able to walk out of; but i made a quick right turn and seem genuinely amped for things to come. A lot has changed since I last wrote, wrote.
Now, about that dream...it'll be a happy fantasy memory for me ( :
