This was how it should really have begun.
Today, a very close friend told me something, which sadly, broke my heart. Yes, it really did. Every piece of good news i've heard for the past few weeks = erased. Not to sound dramatic like an insecure emo person. He asked me whether I was ready to move on. Whether I was all over. I told him the truth.
Something happened. I knew what.
I let go..I did let go..But you held back, don’t you remember?
I wake up every day thinking my heart isn’t where it’s supposed to be.
I secretly watch you from across the room, which sends pain through my heart. I think back a year ago. I wish you’d dare look at me and hear what I have to say. “I don’t wanna get over you, I want you back” But these words you just won’t hear. You don’t seem to remember.
I accepted. The mind’s willing, but the heart...that’s the problem…
It’s always a war between body, mind and soul.
Things will be all right. I just need to channel all these emotions into this one post, and hopefully, things will be better after today. Someday, I’ll know where my heart is supposed to be. I hope to wake up from this nightmare a better person.
But for now, I’m going back to my personal theory.
When we see each other in the future, I hope to ask you how’s your life. I’ll ask you was it how you wanted it to be. I’ll tell you its okay to be angry and never let go. I would be there for you, if things wasn’t all right. But in the condition that you need to keep the promise you made to yourself. Don’t forget.
Something about you I’ll never figure out. This makes you unique. You’re apart.
