Today,i finally got to work with riz after what seemed like so long since he joined the company.and thanks for the ride home.would have reached home damn late hadn't it be for your kindness.lols.
On the downside,add a strained/sprained back to my ever-growing depressed list.and as much as i don't want to complain,i'm beginning to hate this weak body of mine.1st was the thing,now backache.gosh,i'm supposed to be the man of the family man.it kills me when i see my mom carrying the heavy 'things' while she orders me to carry those light ones instead cos of my fragile body.shit la.i hate not being able to act like the guy of the family.those strenuous things are my job man.but why the heck can't i go about doing my job with ease.sigh.visited the doctor like on monday,and i'm visiting one more again tmr.cos apparently my previous 'illness' ain't heal yet.sucks la.money come in and then go like that.could have been put to much better use right.-OUCH!i just sneezed and the right side of my back hurt like hell cos of the sudden 'jerk'!argh,stupid body!sorry God,i know i should be thankful when comparing with those disabled people who aren't as lucky to have a normal body.but still,i feel agitated that i can't fulfill my duty and role properly.
And i haven't had luck too this past few days.just take the dota games just now.i lost all of them.and i lost again in my pursuit of her.go on syafiq,just accept it,you're pursuing the impossible.lets just forget her no matter how much it hurts k.cos you'll never be good enough for her.and my song-writing 'powers' seem to have weakened without her around.my melodies that i came up with ain't nice enough.my words aren't strong enough too.sigh...
But hey it wont hurt to keep her photograph with me right?cos i know it'll definitely serve me well..hmm back hurts like crazy and she's online.gosh,stupid me,still thinking about her.
sorry for the emo post:(
