Looking back,for a moment in life,i was mad,like crazy stupid mad that kind.I wanted to always be in the limelight,like some sort of addict who craves for others attention all the time.I seeked perfection as well,always thinking twice thrice before i say something,just for the sake of impressing others around me.That wasn't the case when i was around my usual group of friends,and cos of that,i concluded one thing.And that is i am a big hypocrite.No doubt about that really,sometimes to the extent of being nice to strangers than a family member.
Fast forward,these days i dont give a damn about people's feelings anymore.I still yearn for perfection,but too much had happened to make me realise that i can never attain perfection.And even before all these events took place,i already knew perfection itself never existed,just that i chose not to believe it.And to this date,the events that shook my beliefs,that woke me up from this stupid dream,still continue to haunt me.It hurts alot when i think about it,and it hurts even more knowing that nothing can be done,or maybe something could had been done but i was too careless to notice the flaws in my life and correct them at the right time.
Anyway,there's still alot that i wanna say and let out onto this blog.But i guess,vomiting these insecurities and problems all at one go is not a good practice.From today onwards,i shall try to address one issue at a time.Only then can i really have a long good careful look at the problem and improve on myself.Till then,if i've offended anyone before this,i'd like to apologise.I'm only human,and only lately have i realised that i need to change for the better.Gnite people!
