Something happened just now.was on the way to work when my bike broke down,again.i emphasise the keyword, again.recently,ive been trying my best to lift up my spirits,trying to be happy and just enjoy life for what it has given me.but as soon as im about to achieve my target,something bad has to happen to bring me all the way back to square one.people might just say,"well thats life boy." but seriously,im starting to wonder,is fate really toying with me?or worse still,forgive me for saying this but is God making a joke out of me?i know ive been neglecting him for awhile but to be in this situation that im in,is asking too much for me to be patient.afterall what im doing,working day and night to earn some extra money till being labelled as having "no-life" by friends is not something that i'd choose to do if i had the choice.fact is,im working hard to support my family.
So seriously,why make it hard for me by giving me a crap bike?and in the 1st place they say we shld trust You when making decisions,well i did trust You dint i?so why now all these problems?all this money that i earned are spent,or should i say wasted on my bike.simply cos these cash should go to my family instead of the bike.it's like the alphabets A to Z.one after another,problems seem to set in.stupid bike,stupid shop,stupid decision,stupid me.who do i blame now?or people will say all thats done is done.dont blame but look forward to a better tomorrow.but honestly,now that problems seem to come every now and them,im kind of scared that many more problems will arise soon.if so,how?seriously how?
All this leads me to this last point.for every actions that we do,small little actions or big ones,there are consequences.same goes for mistakes.look at it this way.it was my decision to purchase the bike in a rush.that was a mistake.big big mistake.the consequence or so called punishment.im thinking hard about this,about signing on.seriously,like it or not,i have to pay back my losses.and this is the only solution that i can think of.school quick end soon.i need to move on the next phase of life soon.
ps: now i realise why i feel so empty.i need to get back to my old ways.get back to remembering that im no one without You.forgive me God for ever thinking that i can do without You.
