Just voicing my thoughts,

This one is dedicated for you
It was April then i thought it was some kind of april fool
joke that fate was playing on me
But oh wells it turned out ok
the way we were having fun
in chatting not knowing that it'd kill me
in due time.
I kept complaining to my buddy
feeling all emo and fuzzy
when she dint reply me,
at which i thought 'oh shit this is it already'.

For sure the feelings did fade
for awhile, and i went from being a loser
to being true-r to myself.
Psycho-ing myself that
''there's many trees in the forests''
not forgettin
''the many fishes in the oceans'' too.
For about a month though i was doing quite okay
partly cos i met this girl at work who said,
well boy if you think you like her even before meeting her
then you're faking it.

From Feb to April to August now,

my uncertain feelings still manage to come through somehow.

Seven months may seem like a long time

but its still a short span to decide,

if whatever i'm feeling is genuine

or more like a habit im forcing onto myself

cos of my big ego and pride.

Don't know what will ever happen,

neither do i wanna think or plan,

but one thing's for sure.

Knowing you could be good for my future,

But then again only God himself knows things better.