So,ultimately i asked and begged to know din't i?i guess the saying curiosity kills the cat is quite true after all.not that it killed me literally,but yeah my ego and pride was deflated.self esteem?i dont think i even need to get started on that.and so it seems.i guess i was trying right from the start.maybe too hard at times i dont know.maybe some things are just not meant to be?gosh,its really hard trying to write something without being too obvious.(and the song playing currently is just adding to the depressing mood.gahh)
the whole point is,im still trying.and i dont think this process of trying is gonna end anytime soon.how i wish someone would just come up to me and say that trying is constant,and it will last through out one's lifetime.i know somewhere deep inside me,that its not wrong to try.its never wrong to try.but yeah,i guess i still havent come to terms with alot of things in life yet.i havent manage to really quite grasp certain aspects of my life which is evolving.i dont noe.im just trying not to be bothered.sigh.
