Notwithstanding the previous posts, it has seriously been some time since I last clocked in time with my blog. Nothing has changed, the links mainly still work (there are a few broken links which I'll need to replace or update), the CBox spammers are still going at it, the blog's owners' pictures are thoughtful as ever, and so on and so forth.
I looked back through some of my posts over the months, and felt nostalgic. A longing for the past to return, but we all know that will never happen. I once told someone that I never really miss my close friends, because I know for certain that I'll be seeing them again. I know for certain that sometime in the foreseeable future, we'll get a chance to meet, hang out, and talk as if there wasn't a tomorrow. Even if they've flown off overseas. We WILL meet again. I won't badly miss my friends, true, but I sorely miss the times that we had together. 10 years down the road, I will look back on all this and say "Oh man, those were the days." Cliché.
You do realize that once the time is gone, it's gone forever? Every single time you see someone, you'll never see that someone under the exact same circumstances, situation and setting again. That's the chaos of life at work. Events can never be replicated perfectly. Once experienced, an event will only live on through your memory, never to be experienced again.
I do not deny that there would be more memories, more epic events to be remembered and cherished. As we grow older, we do stupid things less and less. But when we DO do something stupid, it gets more and more epic. Most of my best memories came from bad ideas.
As I read back through this blog, I felt old. I know this is ridiculous, seeing as I've only been through barely 25% of the upper end of the average human lifespan. In almost 21 years, the things I've seen, the feelings I've felt, and experiences I've had are legion. None of it would be interesting to a stranger, but to me, they are who I am. My identity is composed of experiences, thoughts and feelings after all. In a way, this also gives me hope for the future. If in 20 years I could have amassed such a multitude of memories, imagine what it'll be like 10, 20, or 30 years in the future. I'll be more than twice as old by then, with perhaps more than twice the amount of memories. I'll be looking forward to it. :D
