Its those nights that i hate,that i pretty much fear. I doubt almost everything when im stuck in that situation. Trust,faith,self-belief and anything else. Its weird how just moments before those,i can be feeling all good and great about myself. But all this to vanish and disappear within seconds upon lying on my bed. And the irony of it all is that these silent self-torturing moments comes just before i fall asleep. So much for saying sleep is one of the peaceful things in life that most people enjoy. So much for self declaring that sleep is my greatest remedy to any pain. And so much for self-reflection.
If you are ever wondering what im talking about, yes sometimes i think about you, and that leads to us. When im undergoing one of my self-reflection nights,i really think you deserve someone better than me. Like seriously,there are dozens of guys out there,much better than i am,much kinder than i am,and much sincere than i am if you'd like. Gahh its hard for me to say that. Cos i am afraid of what the future holds, nothing is certain. And im more afraid of losing you. But no worries,i'll hold on stronger than ever,cos i know what i want. And that is to be with you.
