i'd choose to believe that this blog is less frequently visited than my other one.hence,the post here.
well,like we all already found out,everything happens for a reason,a purpose,a motive.we don't have to look or think far for example scenarios.the daily routines that we do are well exemplified.we study cos we want to get good grades.we eat because our stomachs are hungry.we sleep cos our brain and eyes and bodies are tired.and most importantly,i blog cos i feel the need to let out or let go something from inside me.so on and so forth.
so moving on,the topic that has been pressing my mind for days.through the term test week,before that week and the week before and before.and now that all those weeks have passed,it is still bugging me.all i want to say is,....*shit i'm contemplating right now.should i type this all out?*
ah,fuck i'm not gonna care.i just want to say,seriously,i dunno why but i'm thinking your attitude towards me is so cold.like you're avoiding me or something.din't i already make things clear?or is it not clear enough?shit,whichever step i take will always be the wrong one.it'll just make things more complicated that it already is.and i'll still end up being the villian anyhow.
ps:whatever it is,i'll say again.i'm sorry i screwed things up.but you're not helping either.it's always me initiating.really,i just want you as a friend.full stop,nothing more nothing less.if only i could reach out to your understanding...
