It seems to get much worse by the day.At times of the day,i just dont know what to do,and thats the problem see.Cos when im free,i think about you.I'm not saying its not good,but it's sapping my life away bit by bit.And theres still 5 days more for me to hold out for :(
It's maghrib and i just woke up.I guess you know too kan that I'm always sleeping.Sometimes i'm really really tired,but other times,its just to prevent me from getting all emotional from missing you.And sayang,if im annoying tell me kay.I just feel that i'm such a busybody and i keep poking into things i shouldnt.Like who the f do i think i am,setting restrictions and all for you when i shouldnt,yet i still do it.
Not a good day at all.I dreamt about you again just now.In my dream,i was hugging you so tightly and both of us were smiling as we looked into a mirror.I'm not right now,i can tell you that.My heart feels very heavy.Those webcams every night,it helps a tiny weeny bit to give me a bit of strength when i see you,but trust me,at times when im smiling to you,my hearts not.I miss you and i cant help feeling that way.Gosh,see what i mean dear,im being such an irritant kan.Always complaining.sigh.I'm sorry.
